Dear Numerologica-
I typically keep my own council but my partner suggested I write, so I am. I am an almost 52 year old career civil servant deep in the throes of professional burnout.
This last year has been very, very hard because more than anything in the world, I just want to quit. My job has devolved to mere bureaucratic busywork which is painful in the extreme. I constantly dream of waking up one morning and magically, the dull, boring existence that has become my work life will be behind me.
Why don't I quit now you may ask? Well, even with 26 years of service, retiring at 52 won't provide me with much of a pension. Chances are I'd have to get another less well-paying job not to make ends meet but to live my life somewhat near the comfort and convenience level I've become accustomed to. So I feel very stuck in an unhappy existence and I don't know what to do about it. Should I just shut-up and suffer until I can gainfully retire (about 3 years from now)?
Wannabe retiree
Here's my Birthdate: 1/15/1953
...but I'd rather not give my name out. Can you tell me anything based on that?
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A. Dear Wannabe-
I can see by your birthdate that you are a seven, and if there is one thing
that numerology can tell you, it's that seven's rarely give themselves an
easy go of it. You are by nature a Truth Seeker, a person who looks beyond
the superficial, down to deep levels of meaning. Seven's are also
perfectionists...so you may sometimes feel that you should do something the
right way or no way. This puts a lot of pressure on you to make
intelligent decisions and when it comes to deciding when to retire, nobody
wants to make a mistake, am I right?
Coupled with your seven energy is the fact that your current year (which
will change soon since you are born in January) is a 13/4, a Karmic Number.
13 is often a harbinger of change or at least the overwhelming desire to
push past current restrictions. It's the sign of transition, in which some
things die off and others are born. So any circumstance (including your
line of work) that has outlived it's usefulness would probably benefit from
some sort of change. However, I understand your reticence regarding
retirement.
You are also going through a number of other cycles that complicate
matters: Your normally calm demeanor may be hard to maintain due to an
uptick in emotional sensitivity and sense of responsibility. You are
acutely aware of how your decisions impinge on the lives of others and may
not feel right about claiming your own destiny. Add to that your current
challenge which pits issues surrounding livelihood against spiritual
well-being and I see how much pain your current situation causes you.
While your sense of loyalty to those you love is noble, it is also
potentially crazymaking. Seven's above all need psychic balance, and
without it, you kill your power and your vitality.
You must find someway to reconcile your inner and outer life. Daily, you
need to feel inspired and creative. And until at least 56, I see you
needing a big infusion of innovation and trailblazing.
As to how this might be accomplished, seek your own counsel. Your
intuition, when not racked with guilt and gloom and doom is your ticket
out. Try meditating or exercising...anything to stop your mind from
traveling in its well-worn rut. As a seven, I know you'll work out every
detail of your escape plan, so I don't need to tell you to avoid
impulsiveness. This is especially important next year when you enter your
5 Personal Cycle. You'll want to jump to freedom, so be prepared...just
make sure you've got ample pillows and parachutes to cushion your landing.
